College anxiety....

The oddest feeling has overcome me today........


For those that don't know, I am making my departure from Waldorf tomorrow, and moving into my “new” spot on Morgan State University’s campus
Now, although I got my acceptance letter sometime late winter/early spring, attended the open house in April, ANND stayed on campus for the 4 days of freshman orientation (19th-22nd of July), it appears none of that could have helped me to deal with these feelings of anxiety that have been runnin through my head all day.
It’s almost as if I was down all day; odd….But uhhm, as boring as people claim Waldorf to be, I keep feeling like I’ve got soo much unfinished business back. More people to say “goodbye” to, blahsay blah; as if I won’t ever be returning. Idk, bad habit. And then there’s the fact that I don’t wanna leave my mother, or father for that matter. I’m sure they’re happy to be empty nesters but I’m feeling like she needs me back home. Man shit. I’m just having mixed feelings in general right now. I felt like I met a group of friends that would hold me down while I was at orientation, but now I’ve realized that outta all the #’s I got, I really only talked to 2 people so fuck them niggas. Shit’s like I gotta start all over again come tomorrow. And quiet honestly, part of me doesn’t even want to be sociable cause of my strong ties back home. Part of me wants to get on his loner steez, but I know that won’t do me any good. Welp, luckily, I talked w/my good friend GG who’s also sharing some of the same feelings and she offered me some good adive being >>> “Yea, I think the problem is we’re trying to figure it out now and I think we really wont kno til we get there. …”
Sooo, I’ma g’head and take that advice, suck it up and try to meet some new people to ease me through this transition. I’ll keep y’all updated w/that one.




Peace.