? Who am I ?

I love the Lord
But sometimes it's like that I love me more
I love the peace
And I love the war
I love the seas
And I love the shore
No love for no beach
Baby, that's loyal
But she doesn't see, therefore I spoil
I trick, I fall
Run up in raw
I love her, with all my heart
Every vein, every vessel
Every bullet lodged
With every flower that I ever took apart
She said- that she would give me greatness
Status, placement above the others
My face would grace covers
Of the magazines of the hustlers
Paper, the likes of which that I had never seen
Her eyes glow green with the logo of our dreams
The purpose of our scene
The obscene obsession for the bling
She would be my queen
I could be her king
Together, she would make me cool
And we would both rule, forever
And I would never feel pain
And never be without pleasure, ever, again
And if the rain stops
And everything's dry
She would cry
Just so I can drink the tears from her eyes
She'll teach me how to fly
Even cushion my fall
If my engines ever stall
And I plummet from the sky
But she will keep me high
And if I ever die
She would commission monuments on her bosom
To hum
Or maybe she'd retire as well
A match made in Heaven set the fires in Hell
And I'll be

blahhhh

Ok so today was like the worst fucking day. Idk why.....
Felt like I was here in the body, but not the mind

I've come to the realization that I have random days or periods of time when I am completely restless & unmotivated. Bad ass habit but it mostly revolves around school. Today for example, I had a mock AP exam in AP Psychology and I came to class without a pencil and that's the only thing you can use to bubble in your answers on your answer sheet so I was pretty much fucked from the getgo. And to make matters worst, I didn't feel like putting forth the effort so I fell asleep twice during that joint & only answered half the questions. I didn't even study for that shit beforehand. I don't understand why I felt so compelled to neglect my studies. I dont even know why I'm making this dumbass rambling ass blog, but I'm just stressed yo.
& tired of school. I'm ready to graduate & GET THE FUCK.lls


Outtie man. (next time, it won't be so depressing & sappy....sorry folks)

Intoxication

Ignorance at it's finest folks.lmao
Don't do drugs kids.aha
.Enjoy.

Fallen Star

Every homeless man isn't a bum.



Unfortunately, some have extraordinary talents, but for whatever reason(s) didn't make the best of what they were given. This is a tribute to a Mr. Nathaniel Ayers, musical savant for those unfamiliar with his remarkable story. While extremely gifted with cello & violin, he suffers from schizophrenia.



- Keep hope alive

Now this shit made me chuckle

You good sir, are thee fucking MAN, Jamal Smith.
& a pretty damn good skater might I add.
fin.