Fear.mp3

Even though this song dropped a few weeks, I wanna hip the rest of the world who's ears still haven't taken this in yet. As overrated as this man is, you've gotta give him credit for being honest. Imo, he pours his soul on the track on verse 2 and I can relate to every word honesty.....



On a side note, this college shit has been alotta fun. I feel that I have a pretty good handle on my grades so far which is a good thing; taking care of priorities & all.......

However;; I can't help but to feel empty lately. I've only actually told one person this before posting it, but I've been real down. I've seen alotta change this past 2 months or so. While many of my good friends are making progressive steps toward their future, I'm noticing us all developing complete different social circles/lives.
My "brotha"'s moved into his own spot, got a managerial job, and is makin plans on leavin for the Marines in a few months
My otha mans is up North seemingly having the time of his life
My otha good friend is engaged now
I'm sittin back watchin few of my prior interests slip away from me....

I feel that I'm forced to build a new life here in Baltimore; which isn't the worst except for the fact I'm feelin like a fuckin outkast. No matter how many people I've met, exchanged #'s with and surround myself with, I have some of the most boring/lonely nights eva; shit's on repeat. This is the first time I've truly felt like I'm surrounded by associates and I gotta bottle my emotions. Perhaps this is a part of growing up not easily seen....people only want to accept the "positive" aspects of college (parties,sex, drugs/alcohol)....
Eitha way, I'ma man the fuck up & take it for what it is;
If you're real, you can feel what I'm sayin....

*BLAH*
(rant.lol)